Hello everyone! I just had an interesting experience, and thought I might share with you guys.
I have been masturbating a couple of times a week and haven’t found anything that works for me. This afternoon, I decided to try again.
I started off by standing in front of the mirror. I don’t have very much confidence with my body (my dysphoria probably has something to do with it) and I am trying to get used to seeing/handling it. I ran my hands lightly over different parts of my body, trying to figure out some sensitive spots. I figured out that my neck, ribs, and just above my hips are really sensitive.
I then sat on the floor, turned on a video I liked, and began using my vibrator on the sensitive part of my neck. I use an ASMR video, since my ears are extremely sensitive. This seemed to arouse me quite a bit, so I started rubbing my clit with my fingers through my boxers. After a minute or two of that, I took them off, put lube on my fingers, and stroked my clit. This got me even more excited. I played with it for a little while, and learned that upward motions work well for me. I then used the vibrator on my clit. Every now and then, the sensations got too intense and I had to stop for a moment.
I then attached my dildo to a tile on the floor, put lube all over it, and inserted it. It still hurts a bit when I do that, so I didn’t really try to move up and down. I moved my hips back and forth and used the vibrator on my clit. I had to stop for a bit every few seconds because it was so intense. After a bit my ankles hurt because of how I was sitting, so I went up and down once, slowly, and pulled it out.
I think I must have orgasmed, because thin white liquid dripped down the dildo and out of me, but I don’t remember feeling anything like how an orgasm is described. It felt a lot nicer than usual, but I am not entirely sure what happened. Either way, I learned quite a bit this time, and I’m really proud of my progress!