Loneliness & the desire to fulfill sexual fantasy

I have been single for quite some time and for a younger person that can actually feel very isolating and can have a negative affect on my self esteem. I am not “looking” for a relationship but sometimes I just really long for someone to hold me and give me affection. What I especially miss is passionate kissing because that is one of my favorite ways to show love and attraction! Even in terms of my kinks and fetishes, I just desire someone to act out my fantasies with and to let me explore my sexuality. The first sexual experiences I had were very traumatic and I was 12-13 years old (which I am in therapy for) and I just really wish I could be in a relationship that is healthy and nurturing. Does anyone have any tips for coping with loneliness and coping with intense desires to act out fetishes consensually with someone? (when you don’t have anyone to do it with) thank you :heart:

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You are def. not alone on feeling isolated right now, dating is tough in general and add in this year and oof! And humans naturally crave affection, which we get in many ways that we’re not able to this year (god, what I wouldn’t give to just hug my friends right now), so that lack of is just so magnified right now. It’s tough.

It took me a long time to find a healthy and nurturing partner IRL, but until I did, I found a lot of fulfillment online only acting out fantasies and fetishes I wanted to explore, especially with strangers in a safe setting. For me, and oof this is going to date me, but that was in chat rooms and message boards, before the popularity of social media and using video chat. Having it be text based only helped keep a strict boundary and keep it casual, which is what I needed. That said, I feel like you can find folks with similar interests still online in a similar way, like on Reddit, following folks in IG, and just having an active account following the type of stuff you’re interested in. I just always kept it very casual, didn’t give details about myself, and made it clear I wasn’t interested in meeting IRL, that it was purely digital. It was a great way to explore from afar parts of my sexuality.

As for loneliness, I think I was talking about this on another thread recently on here, but if you aren’t already, really lean into self pleasure, amplify it. Mix up how you masturbate! Wear fabrics that feels soft against your skin, put on lotion all over your body, take the time to feel your skin and your body (especially parts you might not touch often, like the back of your knees or elbows) and show your whole body love. Set the mood even if it’s just you, maybe watch a new performer or play with new toys. When I feel isolated, just leaning into really taking care of myself helps.

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Thank you so much for your thorough response!

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Believe me, as someone who has not even got a first kiss let alone be in a healthy relationship, I understand the feeling on loneliness and just the want to be hugged.
On the plus side (or rather a silver lining) is you have a great chance to discover and experiment and find what you like. I mean heck I found out I was bisexual when I felt good when guys in visual novels called me cute lmao

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You’re right! Sometimes it just gets lonely and I want a hand other than my own to spank me :joy: thank you for your kind response :heart:

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