I’ve noticed that my masterbaition has changed. I’ve noticed over the past month or so what exactly sets me into this submissive headspace. I’ve noticed that the more vocal I am the better I feel, which is nice since I’ve been insecure about my “sexy voice”. I’ve also noticed that my play time has involved a lot more nipple play. Recently I’ve probably used my vibe on my chest more then my pelvis. Something about the feeling of my Ollie on my chest just feels so calming and exciting. And that moment when the vibe hits That special spot on my chest and I just melt and uhhhh also fun fact. There are two major insecurities/fears I have about myself that my post depression head loved to convince me I’d never love or be loved by a partner. Those insecurities are my mental health and my weight/body. Like no joke I don’t feel comfortable striping to masterbaite. Like no joke I’ve only recently started taking off my underwear to get off and that’s usually only when I hump my pillow.
BUT FUCK THAT NEGATIVE ENERGY BOLLOCKS AND FUCK THAT MALAKA SIDE OF MY PAST CAUSE I FEEL SEXY AS FCUK NOW! Thanks to more of the nipple play, to feel the vibe better I instinctively lift my shirt. And when I do I just think to myself, “wow I feel like those cute femboy nsfw artworks. I bet I look so cute and attractive with my chest exposed and my nipples hard as my breath heavy and my cock twitching from the pleasure!” After that my sub fan fic side of my imagination takes over and I’m set
Yes my shirt isn’t all the way off but I’m showing off my chubby stomach and chest so I’d say I’m doing good. Also in moments like that, you start to wonder… am I thicc as the youth say? I mean…
Fuck that negative energy! I’m fat and still very much on the journey of body love and acceptance, and I’ve noticed that while stuck at home I have been using the time to just get used to my body being more exposed than what I’m comfortable with. Both in a non sexual but sexual way. Like right now I’m wearing a cropped bralette, which is super comfy lounge wear, but something that exposes my stomach and I’d never usually wear outside or even at home. But I’m getting used to it and now I just feel comfy (and even sexy!)
Silver lining of being stuck at home, positive body work!
Same. I often wear female clothes and cross dress and stuff just cause A: female clothes are more comfy. And B: the designs are more cute. I love baggy clothing cause I hate wearing tight clothes cause I feel uncomfortable. Unfortunately most female clothes have massive V necks which expose more. I’m happy your working on being more comfortable in your own body. It’s so weird that I have a little body shame but I also wanna wear like sexy lace and lingerie underwear for people to stare at. Fuck negative self image! All bodies are beautiful! Stretch marks are gorgeous and chubby bodies will always look good in lace.
Learning about my identity within the bdsm community and accepting that has been a huge part of coming into my self confidence! It’s nice to hear that you’re experiencing a similar thing. Yay for growing self love and confidence!! You deserve to feel sexy and lovable. NICE THIGHS!!
@LisaW Sounds like you’re doing amazing! Fat bodies should be cherished and loved. I’m also trying to use this time similarly in terms of building comfort and confidence. I’m clinically underweight due to illness and it’s tough to cope with mentally. To be very clear, thin people are not discriminated against! My thin body provides me with endless privileges and I’m continuously working to be more aware of them. I struggle with the mental (and of course physical) impact of being underweight. Sick bodies of all shapes and sizes are beautiful, but I’m still working on not seeing the physical proof of my illness as ugly and shameful. Today I wore my disabled joy shirt (by Annie Elainey) that I dyed and made into a crop top. Being exposed like that is tough!! But it’s important work.
Love the top too! I just bought a cute tie dye sweatshirt, I’m so glad that trend is coming back in.
And yup, I think being in a body too that I can’t fully control (my weight is related to a chronic health issue I’ve had since I was 15), it’s been so hard to have a relationship with my body and find trust not only with sex but with so much else. Doing the hard work to build trust and a loving relationship, it’s so, so hard but beyond worth it.
Yes, I feel the same way. Guyz clothes seem pretty meh but girls clothing can be really cute. I swear, there needs to be a size conversion guide or something, or make sure they actually fit. haha
Right? Like guy clothes are so boring! But girl clothes are always so cute and have funny designs or patterns! I just wish pocket size was equal! I was gifted these female jeggings and I love them but god I can’t fit anything in the pockets. Also that’s a super helpful website. Totally bookmarking that
also fun fact. There are two major insecurities/fears I have about myself that my post depression head loved to convince me I’d never love or be loved by a partner. Those insecurities are my mental health and my weight/body. Like no joke I don’t feel comfortable striping to masterbaite. Like no joke I’ve only recently started taking off my underwear to get off and that’s usually only when I hump my pillow.
