Hello! Hope you all are doing well!
I had a random middle of the night question as I began fantasizing a sexual encounter, which really is about our wonderful nipples!
I am a cisgender female who loves nipple play, and I’ve come to question why one nipple feels pain when played with and the other feels the more normal good sensations.
Around my teen years, I did begin exploring my body as we all might have done. But I really just did my best to find things that might tickle my fancy. Especially with nipple play, I was too young to understand how to get the right sensations on my nipples so sometimes I ended up hurting my nipples with hard objects and no lubricant to move around the area. Almost always, ever time I used something on my nipples, I’d end up with a painful, burning sensation. I probably might have caused a few tiny tears without realizing it.
Into my adulthood, I finally learned what made nipple play enjoyable for me and now it’s one of my favorite things to incorporate! But unfortunately I have noticed that my right nipple is actually able to experience pleasure whereas my left nipple experiences pain. Sometimes I had forgotten to tell partners that I experience pain on my left side so I’d always quietly be in pain so as to not ruin the mood for them.
But this has me questioning why both my nipples can’t experience the same pleasurable feeling? Will my nipples always be broken?
It makes me feel not normal. I can’t even remember if maybe I continuously overwhelmed my right side at a younger age that causes it discomfort now. So I’m just wondering if anyone has any guesses or suggestions? Maybe things I can try out or if there’s some sort of specialist I can see? I don’t feel comfortable asking my doctor about this out of fear that I will be brushed off or judged for having this concern.