I’m a woman with practically no sexual experience. Grew up very conservative household, but definitely had boys like me in middle and high school even though I was bossy or mouthy. However, I was forbidden to have a boyfriend, school was always first. In college, I helped friends out of sticky situations such as getting dragged half drunk to a guy’s dorm room or holding their hair while puking on a toilet because there were rejected in the worst way. Those experiences made grow some resentment towards men. I just never wanted to be part of one nightstand. I am smart, too smart for a guy to like me I’ve been told. I was, I guess I am still pretty and have an athletic build with small breasts, not sexy curvy bombshell. The older I’ve gotten the more I would like to be in real relationship and even have sex. I have trouble trusting men, but when I finally was mentally prepared to be more open and worked on my body, bought my first vibrator I turned 41 and then the pandemic is making everything harder. I’m frustrated in more was than one. My close friend since college said I’m probably a hetero demisexual. I’m reading about it and I do need to trust people more. So that’s everything about me, everything.